The only problem is that today is starting out the same way. So sad, so much heartache. I want my kids to have their dad and I want Jove to tell me that "Nobody compares to you" again. I miss his hugs and how proud of me he was. He always said what a fantastic mom I was and that meant everything to me. He bragged about my racing accomplishments to people at work even though I told him I was just performing in an average way. He was always impressed with what I did. He respected all of the volunteer work that I did but never failed to suggest that I should start a business doing xyz. Regularly. Annoyingly frequently. However, it is the annoying little things I miss, actually. His giggly laugh that oftentimes felt so inappropriate is the one I regret getting annoyed with the most. What a gift that laugh was and the joy he seemed to get out of simple things in life. It is just that he was such a good person....and there are so many people that aren't as nice or kind....I never will be able to understand it. Today is going to be hard and I just need to accept it.
It's been a rough week. My tenants moved out of our rental property without giving me this month's rent nor 30 days notice. The place is dirty and they shut off the gas. I get to sit at the first house I shared with my late husband for four hours today in the cold, empty, dirty house. Thinking is not my friend. Not most days and certainly NOT today. Also, my phone dropped and the screen shattered. Only $50 to replace it because I was smart enough to get the warranty but it still impacted my strict 2012 January budget I setup for myself.....and, I am on the Daniel fast again and am finding myself irritated at being so restricted (though I am 1 week and 1 day done so only less than 2 weeks left!)...All I know is that it has been a challenging week and I know, from experience, it could be a heck of a lot worse. I shouldn't complain so much but, sometimes, whining about it just needs to occur. I have friends coming over this weekend that understand all this and I can't wait!
New fitness goal is beginning on 2/1 as well as a new life goal. Wish me luck!